This morning, I wore (am wearing still) the mask for the first time. My students laughed at me!Let's see who has the last laugh..H1N1 is sending shivers through my veins, and does no good to my vanity either..not that I am THAT VAIN but, not only that I look terrible with the mask, I AM literally suffocating behind the mask, for wearing it! The mask I am wearing now is recommended by my personal GP Doctor (General Practioner) who says that it complies with the requirements, labelled as N95 or something like that! Sounds like the Nokia Handphone series to me! Hehe..
Anyway, H1N1 is no laughing matter, as it has killed many people including the elderly and sadly babies who never even got a chance to experience life! Yes, as faithful muslims, we have to accept Qada and Qadar, but as a human being and a citizen of this country, I would like to pose a few simple basic questions.
Who is responsible for all of these?
Who is to be blamed?What should the government do?
What should the public do to at least protect ourselves?
Most importantly,WHAT HAS ALREADY BEEN DONE TO CURB THIS VIRUS from spreading even worst?
I read somewhere that 5 more million is expected to be infected and 5000 more to die in THIS country alone! Oh my god! How can someone say that? How can someone just predict this with a straight face without doing something prominent to curb this? (Perhaps somebody IS doing something that we do not know of) It breaks my heart!! Tremendously..I lost a child last year due to pneumonia. I pray to Allah not to take another. I know everone will die eventually but please..not just yet..
So Malaysians, my students especially, please do something for me and for yourself. Take good care of yourself, take preventive measures. Practise good hygiene and wear the mask! It does not matter if we won't look good (or suffocating like mad inside it), it does not matter if nobody else is wearing it. Just take care care or yourselves and the rest, we leave it to the government and Allah to decide.. This is me, trying to look pretty behind the N95 mask ;) In the PMR Trail Examination Hall, only one student is wearing the mask. In the whole school, only two teachers are wearing it, and that includes me! *Sigh*
Monday, August 17, 2009
Friday, August 7, 2009
FAIR or fUNfair or just Funfair?!
I sacrificed my time to be with my husband this weekend in KL, because I have to attend lectures and I have a presentation. Last night, at 11pm I was still at the airport, sending him off, leaving me with two babies all 'alone' to drive in the middle of the night. (For your information, my babies are: a one year 7 months old boy & 4 months old baby girl).
Because I'm not used to being home alone in the 10 years of our marriage, I had to drive to Chabang 4 Tok Mek Ngoh to my auntie's (terhegeh2 kat orang, tu pun my stepmum's sister, not even my real auntie!) to spend the weekend because I have NOBODY else to take care of the kids.
At 2.30am, I was still up, doing the final touches for our presentation which was supposed to be today. At 3.30 am I was still up, feeding my 2 hungry babies (with formula laa, not susu cap gantung!)
So, imagine 3 hours of sleep, deprived of the usual comfort of my own bed & air-conditioning, mosquitoes that could not take their eyes of our tempting smooth skin & what not.., STILL able to make it to class ON TIME, WAITING patiently for our group's turn to present, anxious with all the long winded questions that might be thrusted upon us...& bla bla bla.. I could go on you know..
I requested 'to continue' with the presentation without the men, since the men were going for their Friday prayers, she (our lecturer) said 'it's unfair'. Okay, so I kept my mouth shut. I could accept that.
All of a sudden, at 12 noon, the usually problematic twins arrived for the lecture!. What?! We all murmured that they shouldn't have come at all!! But anyway.. (They do this every semester to every lecturer, every 'hand in assignment' day, every presentation day...etc)
All of a sudden (AGAIN), the lecturer said, "could the ladies please wait, the twins need to present today because they have problems tomorrow".. What the &@$%!
So now tell me what the hell is FAIR?! I really need some justification!
Because I'm not used to being home alone in the 10 years of our marriage, I had to drive to Chabang 4 Tok Mek Ngoh to my auntie's (terhegeh2 kat orang, tu pun my stepmum's sister, not even my real auntie!) to spend the weekend because I have NOBODY else to take care of the kids.
At 2.30am, I was still up, doing the final touches for our presentation which was supposed to be today. At 3.30 am I was still up, feeding my 2 hungry babies (with formula laa, not susu cap gantung!)
So, imagine 3 hours of sleep, deprived of the usual comfort of my own bed & air-conditioning, mosquitoes that could not take their eyes of our tempting smooth skin & what not.., STILL able to make it to class ON TIME, WAITING patiently for our group's turn to present, anxious with all the long winded questions that might be thrusted upon us...& bla bla bla.. I could go on you know..
I requested 'to continue' with the presentation without the men, since the men were going for their Friday prayers, she (our lecturer) said 'it's unfair'. Okay, so I kept my mouth shut. I could accept that.
All of a sudden, at 12 noon, the usually problematic twins arrived for the lecture!. What?! We all murmured that they shouldn't have come at all!! But anyway.. (They do this every semester to every lecturer, every 'hand in assignment' day, every presentation day...etc)
All of a sudden (AGAIN), the lecturer said, "could the ladies please wait, the twins need to present today because they have problems tomorrow".. What the &@$%!
So now tell me what the hell is FAIR?! I really need some justification!
Sunday, August 2, 2009
think not
Sometimes I think of all the happy moments
to help me be strong
to keep me going on
At times I think of the sad ones
to remind me of the good ones
to forget the pain and heartaches
Most of the time I try not to think at all
to be me as I'd like to be
to accept people as they are
to go where life leads me
to live life as it should be
to help me be strong
to keep me going on
At times I think of the sad ones
to remind me of the good ones
to forget the pain and heartaches
Most of the time I try not to think at all
to be me as I'd like to be
to accept people as they are
to go where life leads me
to live life as it should be
About time
I was the one
who went away
I was the one
to leave
We were not the ones at fault
as time is what it's all about
though
I never did forget
neither
did I let go
but
I am the one
who searched
and found you
amongst the crowd
or may be the time has come
for time is what it's all about
who went away
I was the one
to leave
We were not the ones at fault
as time is what it's all about
though
I never did forget
neither
did I let go
but
I am the one
who searched
and found you
amongst the crowd
or may be the time has come
for time is what it's all about
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Ammar strikes again!
Ammar strikes again, he locked his daddy in the bathroom this morning while mummy was already at school! I only found out about this in the afternoon when I called him to say 'hi'. Can you imagine being locked inside the bathroom, having to struggle your way out?
So how are we supposed to avoid all these risks, having small children around? I don't mean 'risks of having children' but everyday risks that parents and children undertake and the consequences that we have to face.
Everyday is definitely a new learning parenting experience, yes, that can only be learnt through experience. Books, family and friends etc can tell you so many things and give all kinds of advice but only experience can provide the best methods and means for parenthood!
Experience is the best but of course, the meanest teacher of all..
So how are we supposed to avoid all these risks, having small children around? I don't mean 'risks of having children' but everyday risks that parents and children undertake and the consequences that we have to face.
Everyday is definitely a new learning parenting experience, yes, that can only be learnt through experience. Books, family and friends etc can tell you so many things and give all kinds of advice but only experience can provide the best methods and means for parenthood!
Experience is the best but of course, the meanest teacher of all..
Sunday, July 5, 2009
deMOTIVATION
Demotivated
is just a word,
a harmless little adjective
that leads to catastrophes.
Is it just a word?
it is definitely not positive
but positively negative,
negatively scary,
and scarily contagious,
contagiously outrageous,
outrageously convincing that
life is not worth living,
no one is worth the caring,
when everything is mundane,
and everyone seems insane.
It is not just a word,
it is indisputably dangerous,
a treacherous enthusiasm,
an apathetic phenomena,
that leads to violation
and abandonment
of all.
is just a word,
a harmless little adjective
that leads to catastrophes.
Is it just a word?
it is definitely not positive
but positively negative,
negatively scary,
and scarily contagious,
contagiously outrageous,
outrageously convincing that
life is not worth living,
no one is worth the caring,
when everything is mundane,
and everyone seems insane.
It is not just a word,
it is indisputably dangerous,
a treacherous enthusiasm,
an apathetic phenomena,
that leads to violation
and abandonment
of all.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
They're only words, but they could kill
Oops, they did it again!
The cashew nuts strike again!!
This time, involving a friend, colleague and parent all summed into one.
Oh, and a spouse of that person whose world is now spinning gasing.
What you do between the four walls of your home, does not necessarily mean that the walls would secure you from the world outside and the outside world.
What you confide in a colleague in the comfort of your own school does not necessarily mean that it will stay in your own school, as walls at school have more eyes and ears and in fact, possess bigger mouths that cannot be seen even with very tactful eyes.
Who you think is a teacher of your children is first and foremost a normal 'flawfull' human being who have many ways of turning into a hateful selfish tell tale creature that can destroy every little bit of happiness that you have left or you hope to have in what's left of your life.
What you expect to be a confidential MOU between you and that 'trusted' trustworthy trustee does not necessarily mean that the MOU then would still be understood later. It might as well have been called an MOM.. Memorandum of Misunderstanding, so everyone can just purposely misunderstand and do whatever the hell they like, with whoever the hell they know, wherever the hell they feel suitable, however the hell the way it is and whenever the hell permits! For God's sake, an MOU is an MOU! It does not have to be a *#%k^+# written agreement!
Who you trust as a friend (especially at work) does not necessarily mean that the person would stand by your side through thin and thick. In fact, that person may be the one breaking the thin ice that you're standing on the moment they get the opportunity so you would drown and freeze to death immediately, without even having the chance to realise it before it's too late.
Who you believe is your life partner for decades does not necessarily mean that you are still with the same person that you met and knew ages ago. They may surprise and give you the shock of your life that you have no faith in anyone anymore, perhaps not even in yourself!
The lesson that we should learn from this IS that, 1) trust no one! 2) trust especially not two! 3) trust nobody,nobody and nobody at all, except in Allah of course..
We cannot force upon others a certain expectation that we ourselves cannot fulfil if thrusted onto us but we can stop (or at least try to) ourselves from being our own enemy and stop using our own weapon to trap and kill ourselves in our own words..
The cashew nuts strike again!!
This time, involving a friend, colleague and parent all summed into one.
Oh, and a spouse of that person whose world is now spinning gasing.
What you do between the four walls of your home, does not necessarily mean that the walls would secure you from the world outside and the outside world.
What you confide in a colleague in the comfort of your own school does not necessarily mean that it will stay in your own school, as walls at school have more eyes and ears and in fact, possess bigger mouths that cannot be seen even with very tactful eyes.
Who you think is a teacher of your children is first and foremost a normal 'flawfull' human being who have many ways of turning into a hateful selfish tell tale creature that can destroy every little bit of happiness that you have left or you hope to have in what's left of your life.
What you expect to be a confidential MOU between you and that 'trusted' trustworthy trustee does not necessarily mean that the MOU then would still be understood later. It might as well have been called an MOM.. Memorandum of Misunderstanding, so everyone can just purposely misunderstand and do whatever the hell they like, with whoever the hell they know, wherever the hell they feel suitable, however the hell the way it is and whenever the hell permits! For God's sake, an MOU is an MOU! It does not have to be a *#%k^+# written agreement!
Who you trust as a friend (especially at work) does not necessarily mean that the person would stand by your side through thin and thick. In fact, that person may be the one breaking the thin ice that you're standing on the moment they get the opportunity so you would drown and freeze to death immediately, without even having the chance to realise it before it's too late.
Who you believe is your life partner for decades does not necessarily mean that you are still with the same person that you met and knew ages ago. They may surprise and give you the shock of your life that you have no faith in anyone anymore, perhaps not even in yourself!
The lesson that we should learn from this IS that, 1) trust no one! 2) trust especially not two! 3) trust nobody,nobody and nobody at all, except in Allah of course..
We cannot force upon others a certain expectation that we ourselves cannot fulfil if thrusted onto us but we can stop (or at least try to) ourselves from being our own enemy and stop using our own weapon to trap and kill ourselves in our own words..
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